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For Letitia

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I have learned a lot about myself in the last month and a half or so. Lessons that I thought that I had already learned from previous losses. Lessons I didn't think I needed to be taught, again. Then my beautiful mother left this world and mine blew apart. Far further than I could ever have anticipated. I thought, at first that I could just take a little time, then pick up and carry on, much as usual. Ha! Laughs life, laughs fate. Turns out, what has been needed is not only time to grieve, to mourn, but to realign, to find my new axis. That process takes time, I am allowing it. Following the natural course I need to take to move forward and pick up. I'm feeling ready to take first steps, methinks. Letitia Ellsworth was my mother. She was my kindred spirit, my touchstone, my best and closest friend. She was the one person who understood me like no one else, who knew me on a level that no other human being ever could or ever would. I miss her so much. Sometimes it is so strong