A Year Passed

It feels like a moment, like an eternity, like a mere heartbeat.

Acceptance comes slowly, the heart heals gradually but I miss you with an ache that will not ease up. I dream about you, I wake and for a bright, silvery instant I have forgotten. Then I remember and for that moment, I can't breathe, again. 

Your number is still in my phone, your email in my contacts. Your Birthday notification popped up on my Facebook page to remind me that yesterday would have been your 72nd Birthday. As if I could forget. Never. 

You are still my kindred spirit. You are the guiding voice in my ear, the finest part of me is you.

Letitia Ann Ellsworth 11/10/1942 - 11/11/2013 
    I love you, Mother. I miss you, always.   


  1. I came across your page by way of a google search for nail art. I saw this post and it struck a chord. I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am. I lost my own mother when I was fifteen, and although time has lessened the pain of that loss, and I myself am in my early 50's now, I still miss her. I'm truly sorry for your loss.

  2. Carole, thank you so very much for your sweet words. I can't begin to express how much your kindness means to me. Losing our mother, whether we are very young or older is not the easy thing. A part of us will need and miss her for as long as we breathe. (((Hugs))) for you.

  3. Thinking of you today, Erika. I can't believe it's been a year. My dad is dying of leukemia, and I just don't like to think about it.

  4. Thank you so much. And I'll take those hugs. <3

  5. Melissa, My heart is aching for you. Don't think about it, too much. Cherish every moment you can, make memories, tell one another how much you love each other. Store up the love and the joy. It will help to carry you through. I am sending you (((Hugs))) and support and light and warmth. <3

  6. Such a lovely post .... Truly sorry for your loss. Your post made think about my dad. I lost him 21 years ago (11/13/93). I think about him often especially this month. Even after all these years my heart still aches and miss him dearly but it has gotten easier as the years go by. So glad we have our memories of our loved ones. Like you said - we have to cherish those moments with them. Thank you for sharing with us. Hugs to you. Stay Strong.

  7. Such a beautiful post and I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my dad almost 14 years ago and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of him and miss him dearly. I hope that time eases your pain.


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